jealousy is an evil bitch

i want to write about people bringing other people down. i've never been one to straight out state "dude people are just jealous, that's why they're trying to bring you down". i don't believe this is the case 99% of the time. people aren't dissing you because they are jealous. they're dissing you because they have nothing better to do. but recently i have seen someone trying to bring me down because i DO believe they are jealous. never thought i'd see the day, like who would actually be that stupid to be jealous of me. i'm not worth being jealous of. anywho, i guess some people feel that because they are getting nowhere in life, and because i'm strongly for going somewhere in life, that they'll make up shit in order to feel better about themselves. that they'll create this new world in their mind in order to feel like they're a "good" person.

i'm not going into major detail about any of this because quite frankly giving out names and dates and info just isn't my thang. but i do want to say that honestly no one should ever be jealous of me because... seriously. take a look at me. i'm me. okay i guess you can be jealous of the fact that i live life the way i want and don't give a shit about what anyone thinks. and i'll straight up say that. most people say that statement and are only half telling the truth. they don't live by the shit they speak. but me, i'm doing what i'm doing because i want to, not because someone is forcing me to or making me feel like i have to. i'm not one to suck up, butt kiss, or stress out in order to make people like me. you either like me or you don't. and i guess that may be something that can cause one to get jealous, but it shouldn't be. if you want to "live like me" or whatever the fuck is going on in your brain, then just do it okay. instead of whining to me about how i'm a fuckup. or about how you think you're better than me (who the fuck actually says that... oh believe me i've heard it at least once this month). um, who fucking cares.

again this is a bunch of blabber. i'm not making much sense, and i don't expect you to understand me. i'm sure that most of what i said conflicts with other shit i've previously stated (or better yet, conflicts with shit i just stated). i know who i'm talking about when i write this shit down, so you really don't need to. i'd do the whole "names have been changed for the sake of not making anyone feel like a complete and total douche", but i'm just not in the mood.